down.

things have not been going smooth lately. what i expected and predicted months back, is happening at the moment. probably worse in some ways.



one of the cliches goes; you gain some, you lose some.

don't know how true is that. well, i gained something valuable, and by the looks of it, i may be losing some along the way.

the process isn't the smoothest as well. and this has been feeding myself a lot of hatred and anger unconsciously. somehow, i do not see signs of the beast crawling out of me yet. maybe it died from the last incident.

i might be down, but i've always came back stronger and usually with lot of hatred and anger.

i'll be back,.. once more.

re-ignite the fire.

"we're all professionals!"

"we're the best of the best, aight! if we're the best of the best, aren't we supposed to be kicking the asses out of the enemies!?"

"it's been tough, and i know that, aight. we gotta hang on there, aight. the enemies are rough, but we gotta be rougher, aight! we do what we came here to do, and we do it! anyone needs help, we help. we do not leave a single man behind, aight. one man behind means the whole team is behind, aight!"

"we need you to give all your best! we're a team, we work as a team, we die as a team, and we achieve as a team! aight!"

"now, get your packs out of here and fight. i expect perfect results by the end of the day and we shall do it!"

the war is at its' peak.

fight the emotional warfare. forget about the medals of honor. win the war and come back again as heroes of ourselves.

unleash the fire in me and you'll see a beast crawling out of me!