the fire.

throughout these months, i've learnt quite a number of things.

fire,..

will always die no matter how wonderful, strong and bright it is.

fire will always need a disposable to compliment with it. it can never be a 'standalone'. and like all disposables, it ain't infinite. it will,.. eventually finish.

weeks back, i wish to leave peter once for all. but i realized, it ain't so easy after all.

for months, i've been feeding peter with cricket. i realized cricket's fire is strong, but only at the beginning. it will run out of gas eventually.

being me, the inner me always wanting for eternal love, i crave for loyalty too much. i do not want the gas to run out. i do not want the fire to die off.

should i get a refillable? zippo maybe?