highway frog.

i've talked the talk,
walked the walk,
and finally,

parked the park.

you know, talking the talk cost absolutely nothing while walking the walk costs probably some convictions but parking the park,

cost the most money of all.

people who knows me well will know that i'm a high-roller, spend more than i can afford and thinks money may actually fall from sky one day.

but after that incident, i have to be more innovative in parking. parking ain't cheap anymore. once you're locked, your wallet goes on diet.

and now because of that, i have to be frogger in 'highway frog', twice a day!

they say, there's always a bright side of every situation. well, it applies a little bit in this. at least i get to wait for someone at the 'make out bush' on certain days and play 'frogger' together before riding her home.

a lot of changes are greeting me at the beginning of this year. i believe the transition is happening.

right now,

i just need to kill the monster in me, resolve 2 things and,

i'll be a man once more.

a day without him,

is the day where my heart goes away, again.

the day started off awaked by the buzz of my alarm. i dragged myself up and could not find him beside me.

everyday, i had to rush to the glass door for the 'release'. as i was rushing today, my heart dropped as i remember i did not have to.

i sighed, but continued my way towards kitchen for my daily morning glass of water. to not leap over on the entrance of the kitchen is something that i have to live with in the future.

i quickly got myself ready and rushed to work.

time of the day came,

KFC was the place to dine. as jess was stuffing coleslaw into the infamous KFC bun, the thought striked me. i will no longer need to pack the infamous bun for him anymore. tell me, oh tell me, how will i be able to have KFC anymore?

as i reached home, i sat on the couch like i do everyday, i realized the missing white bunny hopping away crazily on routine basis.

my heart dropped again.

some say, home is where the heart is. i say,

it's true if you did not lose your heart.

the usual 2 screens occupied my whole night,.. without a sight of the white bunny. eventually, i ended the night trying to forget the thought of hugging fluffy for the night.

the loss is too much. i wish i never had him if i could not own eternity love.

maybe that's just a flaw in me.

will you, forget the time we shared, or will you,.. wait for me in the doorstep?

good things don't last long.

"you're stupid to be still in love with him"

"my dear, you can never fall in love without being stupid"

she hates it, i love it.

i can't help it.

the feeling is great.

whenever together, my heart pumps fast just like a guy who has never been in love. blood thrusting in the veins all the way to my brain.

you're a great companion, but you're disastrous.

i'm leaving you.

peter, i love you. and i will miss you soon.